Day 20. AYAT. First day past the wound vac removal. This was the middle incision that they had used to open me up and wash out the infection. After removing the wound vac they did another washout and sewed me up. I remember feeling like I had just put on the tightest pants. Before the original surgery I had teased the surgeon about getting a tummy tuck, could he just throw one in. Needless to say he did not but coming out of this surgery sure felt like I had had one.
The hospitalist started to suspect hyperdynamics as he heard a heart murmur but I do not remember him saying anything to me or anything happening after this to suggest I have one. I will have to figure that out now. Maybe could be nothing... I also see the word Obese over and over. I realize they had to report on that but it's so hard to see it. I have tried everything I can think of and the weight just won't come off. In the hospital, I lost so much weight but that was due to the antibiotics making me so sick to my stomach that I couldn't eat much and the ostomy removing nutrient before I could digest it. I still think that if I hadn't had all of this extra weight, I might of starved. I still work hard at not overeating and I am usually a very active person but it's not working. I have tried the injectables, pills, diet plans and exercise but very little progress if any. It's one thing to see yourself and wish it away but its another to know that others see it and judge you, believing that you are just lazy or a glutton.
Today: I learned a new word today, afebrile which means to be without fever.
I am also applying to a special program that I am soooo excited about. They are asking for a complete resume, all of the places I have worked since I was 18. I am glad I have resumes from so far back as references. Not only have I changed career fields, but I have traveled to other countries and have got to experience so many different working conditions. The Denver Art Museum was one of my favorites.
Today might be a down day and that's okay. There is a time for everything.
