Day 32, AYAT Most of my levels were improving to the point that discharging me home was now on a tentative schedule. They had planned to do another surgery and if all else was good, then send me home. Appearance was listed as well-developed which is a very kind way of saying obese. I prefer well-developed. I was however, still having fevers which were so painful. I remember sitting there in horrible pain while my body shivered. The shivers hurt so much and my eyes burned. I would beg for as many warm blankets as they could give me. Those nurses were saints!!! They would accommodate me as best as they could. The CNAs were also amazing. They worked very hard to listen to what I needed and protect my privacy. I liked to have my door closed because I felt like a fish in a fishbowl but I remember during the fevers, I was scared to be alone so I asked for them to keep the doors open. I wanted someone to find me if something went wrong. Nothing did, but I was still scared. It is hard to wake up from a situation that you were mostly unaware of what was going on around you and start to improve only to regress. Even if that regression is just a little, it was terrifying. I was not ready to say goodbye to anyone and I felt like I had a lot to do once I got out of the hospital but I also realized that there is a time for everything. If it was my time, then it was my time. Nothing, including the medical staff could change that. So for today, I am meant to be here.

Today has been amazing! We have babies! Okay baby chicks but still babies! The eggs I collected after Penny passed away, in hopes that we would get at least one naked neck baby has hatched. We have 5 little babies! Two are regular chickens, one four toed baby, and two silkies… Yes, one is a naked neck silkie. She/He is beautiful and has such a sweet personality already. It is tiny like Penny was when she was just born. Pic of this sweet little one!