A couple of weeks ago, I received some really hard news. A dream of mine, a life long dream, is in serious jeopardy. My body has been fighting this process for years and right when I think we have it figured out, something else seems to pop up. A physician that I have a wonderful professional relationships made some suggestions that crushed me. The suggestions would “fix” what is wrong but would end this dream. Even typing it out hurts and the tears keep falling. There have been other circumstances that have interfered with this dream so its not just a single string that needs to be tugged. For a couple of weeks I have been dealing with the pain and reality that this dream may be over the horizon and a new dream will have to take its place. Hopefully we will find a solution that will make this dream possible. Sometimes the answer is no and that is what is best. Accepting that reality is a whole other story. I need to keep in mind that I am here for a reason and that this life is blessed even if this dream doesn’t come true. Lord, help me change the things I can change, and accept the things I cannot change, and to know the difference.

A year ago https://mwilliamsart.com/64days/2024/10/1/september-16-2024. I was looking at my sleeping habits in the hospital. I still have a huge amount of issues sleeping. I wake up easily, everything has to be just right and my giraffe has to be close. We have found things to help with sleeping but it insomnia runs in both sides of my family so until there is a cure, I will just have to insist on my comfy pillow, blanket, warmy, and Bender! Bender is from Furturoma!