September 10, 2025 - Anniversary of becoming an Aunt!

Wednesday, September 10. A couple of days ago, I had received some very heartbreaking news but other than small bouts of crying, I am doing okay. The news was along the line of having a lifelong dream, working towards it for over 20 years and finally getting a “no, this will not happen for you” kind of news. I am looking at other options, but this was the kind of thing that chops you off at your knees. Today, my head is starting to clear up and I have been able to focus on getting a few things done. It hasn’t been easy realizing my dream is just not going to happen. It would take a miracle which do happen. I just need to take it one day at a time.



https://mwilliamsart.com/64days/2024/10/1/september-10-2024 I am celebrating today with much love as it is the 18th anniversary of when I became an aunt. My dear nephew who is now 18 made me an aunt. I have always looked at him as a birthday present. I just love that our birthdays are so close. It is truly an honor to know you and to get to see you grow. I love you my sweet boy!

 

Now that I am caught up, I can keep going. Giving myself grace for hard times is something I am doing more of and not expecting perfection out of myself. This week will continue to be just a busy, but I know I can do it, and I will do it. One step at a time.

September 9, 2025 - How Not to Poison Your Coworker

Tuesday was all about preparation. I spent the entire day getting ready for an important meeting, and when the moment finally came, I managed to hold it together. No clamming up in front of the CEO this time—thank goodness! Still, my nerves betrayed me. My palms were sweaty, clamped tightly together like I was holding on for dear life. But at least I didn’t look like a baboon trying to use a banana as a phone. Small victories.

The day wasn’t without its lighter moments, though. At one point, I had to explain to a coworker that what they thought was basil was, in fact, a flower. And no—it was definitely not edible. The conversation may have been one of the goofiest I’ve had in a while, but it spared my friend from an accidental taste test and saved the plant from unnecessary nibbling.

All in all, a successful day: a meeting survived, a friend spared, and one plant left happily rooted.

Looking back at last years post all I see is crows feet!!! https://mwilliamsart.com/64days/2024/10/1/september-9-2024. Yes I am being very hard on myself but since then, I have been using a cream around my eyes. It has helped soften those lines. I am very thankful for those lines, as it means I have laughed through out my life. All I can hope for is more of them!

September 8, 2025 - Dreams on Wheels

September 8, 2025 was another one of those unforgettable days (HIPAA keeps me from spilling details, but trust me—it was good). By the time I was driving home, windows down and music blasting, I felt unstoppable.

Lately, my husband and I have been tossing around the idea of me finally getting my dream car. What I didn’t expect was the little revelation that came Monday: this car—the car—has almost double the horsepower of my Power Wagon. Double. For someone whose truck is already built to kick @$$, that realization nearly knocked me sideways. The thought of all that power under the hood? Let’s just say it gave me goosebumps.

I don’t need a Redeye. I don’t even want that much madness. But here’s the thing—I spend a huge portion of my life behind the wheel. So why not make it the ride of my dreams? Why not let every mile feel like freedom?

It will be purple. It will be mine. And it will have a name: Ziva… or Kitty… or maybe Pretty Kitty.

Stay tuned. This story isn’t finished yet.

A year ago we had just picked up some silkie chicks. https://mwilliamsart.com/64days/2024/10/1/september-8-2024. We were also incubating a few eggs. Moving forward and having things to look forward to helped me make peace with all that happened. This year, everything is hitting me differently. I don’t know if its because it’s two years since or if the shock is wearing off. I know where I was two years ago and because of this blog, I remember last year. Still a Bronco fan, still love chickens, still love my little farm, still afraid of spiders. New - a new masters, a new position, a new lots of things. Growth is important, pushing forward, making things better. I see a lot of challenges a head but thats okay. God already knows whats going to happen. I am just along for the ride!

September 7, 2025 -The Rooster Who Thought He Was Ten Feet Tall

Sunday was a whirlwind—a mix of homework, football, and farm life. My day was packed with meticulous painting assignments (the kind that eat up every ounce of focus) and Broncos game fever buzzing in the background. The game itself was decent, but the final two minutes had us on the edge of our seats. There may have been some yelling when we fumbled the ball, but the Titans graciously handed it back, and all was forgiven.

Amid the chaos of paintbrushes and football, my heart was tugged in another direction. We said goodbye to one of our first little roosters, Sparkles. Sparkles was a bantam full of sass—barely a foot tall but strutting around with the attitude of a giant. Just last week he’d given us a scare, hiding in tall grass until one of my Great Danes found him. There was a scream, a scramble, and then—miraculously—Sparkles popped up and walked away, only minus a spur. I knew stress could take its toll on chickens, so Sparkles spent the week inside, recovering in the company of our grouchy momma hen and her baby (who still pecks me every time I bring food).

Today felt like his big comeback. I let him out with the others, including our new roo, and after more than an hour of careful observation, it looked like peace was possible. Sparkles was squawking and crowing like he’d been given a brand-new lease on life.

But as evening fell, tragedy struck. When my husband went to gather everyone for the night, he found Sparkles in the duck water tank. Somehow, he had climbed up, fallen in, and drowned. I can’t explain why he chose that when easier water was all around him.

I’m crushed. But I take comfort in knowing his last day was filled with sunshine, freedom, and joy. He lived it fully, strutting and crowing like the little spark he was.

Love you, little stink pot. You will be missed. 💔

From last year: https://mwilliamsart.com/64days/2024/10/1/september-7-2024. Since all of this happened, I work to make every day something special. Not everyday is epic but it is memorable. Each day is a gift!

September 6, 2025 - A Roo Named Two and a Cat Named PoPo

Today sped by like a rocket. We started the morning with a medical appointment and somehow ended the day welcoming two new souls into our little farm family—a rooster and a cat, both in need of a safe place to land.

First came the rooster. City officials made it clear he wasn’t welcome in town (roosters rarely are), but I’ve always had a soft spot for them, so here he is, strutting proudly across the yard. He’s stunning—pure white feathers, a deep burgundy comb and wattle, a face touched with black, and ears that shimmer the most regal shade of royal blue. Truly, he’s beautiful. His name? “Two.” It’s a nod to what his former owners called him, but as for the story behind it… let’s just say: Don’t ask!

Then there’s PoPo. His story is harder, and I’ll spare the sad details, but what matters most is his future. No more barns, no more cold nights, no more scraping by without proper care. PoPo will spend his days inside, sharing space with the other cats, where food and water are always waiting, cat trees reach high, and human hands don’t reach for him unless he chooses. He’s not much of a people-cat, and that’s okay—he can be his own snooty, independent self while still living his very best life.

Two and PoPo. One struts, one sneaks. Both safe, both home.

A year ago I posted this: https://mwilliamsart.com/64days/2024/10/1/september-6-2024. The image was so fresh in my head. During my “sleep” at the hospital I had over 20 different delusions/hallucinations and from what I hear, this is all normal. They were vivid and dark. The colors were unmatched by anything in this world. I had planned on making images for all of them. That will happen sometime but so far, these are the only ones I have done so far. Maybe they will manifest in a different way… Maybe I will write them all down and share the stories. Some of them were terrifying and some of them were blissfully beautiful. This could be very interesting! Most of them had a red and black color scheme. Sometimes white or grays. I wonder what influenced the colors? It is not lost on my that Red and Black are the colors for Sepsis awareness. Maybe I was already seeing my future just in different ways. This wouldn’t be the first time.

September 5, 2025 - When Work Feels Like Joy

The last few days have flown by in a blur. September 5th was one of those rare, extraordinary days—so full of meaning and goodness that it left me with a full heart and a lightness in my step, almost as if I were floating. So much unfolded that I wish I could share, but out of respect for HIPAA, those details must remain tucked away. What I can say is that it was a day that mattered deeply—for my patients and for my own growth in this role.

The day was so rich and rewarding that time slipped away unnoticed. By the time I finally sat down to write, I was fighting sleep and decided to wait until “tomorrow.” Of course, one day turned into two, then nearly a week. Life has a way of moving quickly when your days are full.

So today, I’m giving myself the space to pause and catch up. Looking back, Friday wasn’t just a good day—it was a reminder of why I do what I do. The work, the connections, the little victories—they filled me with gratitude and reminded me of the joy in this path I’ve chosen.

A year ago https://mwilliamsart.com/64days/2024/10/1/september-5-2024 I wrote about looking back even further—back to the hospital bed that held me in 2023 and to the heartbreak of losing my sweet Penny. I can still remember the ache of that day, softened only by the hope tucked inside the incubator where her eggs rested. In that moment, I couldn’t have imagined how much life was still waiting to bloom.

Today, I get to share the continuation of that story. Penny’s baby, Yenny, has grown into her own. She’s curious, gentle, and carries echoes of her mama in the tilt of her head and the softness of her clucks. And now, Yenny herself is preparing to be a mother.

It feels like a circle quietly closing and opening all at once. What began with loss has become a lineage of care, continuity, and new beginnings. Watching Yenny settle into her own role reminds me that life rarely gives us neat endings—it offers layers. Grief, hope, and joy all weave together until you can’t quite tell where one ends and the next begins.

When I see Yenny fussing over her nest, I think of Penny’s comfort during my hardest nights, and I feel a thread of connection that spans generations. It’s humbling and, honestly, a little miraculous.

Yenny’s next chapter is hers to write, but for me, she will always be living proof that even out of heartbreak, new life takes root. Penny’s story didn’t end a year ago—it grew wings in Yenny. And now Yenny carries that gift forward.

September 4, 2025 - September Blooms and System Overload

“September Blooms and System Overload”

I walked into the store for one thing—a Bronco’s orange and blue hair bow. I walked out with a Nix quarterback Bronco jersey, a box of Gushers for my hubby, a Silence of the Lambs t-shirt (because who doesn’t need Hannibal Lecter as part of their fall wardrobe?), and an armful of fall mums, asters, and dahlias. Apparently, I’ve entered the season of my life where my shopping cart makes its own decisions, and I just roll with it.

It was the perfect ending to a full, beautiful day. There’s something about fall flowers—the rich oranges, deep purples, and late-season greens—that feels like medicine for my soul. Growing things has always been one of my quiet joys, but after my long hospital stay, it’s become something more: a daily reminder that healing doesn’t happen in sterile white rooms alone. Green spaces, whether it’s a rooftop garden or just a pot of marigolds by the door, have carried me through.

I know this post is a little late. The past few days have been a whirlwind: juggling my new master’s program, work at the hospital, family life, and the thousand little tasks that make up “just living.” Honestly, I feel overloaded—but in the best way. I love every piece of it. It feels like proof that I am living a life worth saving.

So, while my to-do list may look like a crash course in chaos, I choose to pause here. To laugh at myself for how a simple hair bow trip spiraled into a jersey, candy, horror-movie fashion, and enough flowers to outfit a parade float. To smile at the way my porch blooms like fall itself stopped by for a visit. And to remind myself—and maybe you too—that sometimes the most important healing work is planting beauty where you can and letting it grow.

A year ago Here I was reflecting on the beauty of Fall and all that it brings. Today was no different. The air changes, the color of the sky changes, and I could be outside 24/7 and be happy. It takes focus to listen to the birds singing, flapping, squawking at each other. We are so busy running around that we forget to be in the moment and just be. I was listening to my chickens talk to each other as they zoomed through the yard and witnessed two of my hens colliding with one another. They were my big hens and newest babies to go out into the yard. For some reason they decided to pick on one another. I was imagining what they were saying to one another and thats when the reality hit me…. Why Chickens do not make good preachers! Because their language is rather foul. (Picture created with the help of AI)

Sepsis is a hard illness to deal with both during and for many years after. The initial infection took about 3 to 4 months to clear as there different fluid pockets and other things that required IV antibiotics. Recently I ended up in the emergency department because I was having an episode that didn’t make sense and I was experiencing some pain that lead me to believe I had been dealing with a UTI that was growing out of control. We were able to treat it with antibiotics and that is good outcome. A lot of other people do not have a good outcome. Please help me raise awareness for sepsis. Too many people pass away from something that is treatable if caught quick enough. September is Sepsis awareness month. Please wear red and bring attention to this illness.


September 3, 2025 - System Error: CEO Proximity Mode Activated

A couple of days ago, I found myself at a luncheon sitting with the CEO. Let me be clear: this was not by design. My plan was simple—sit down, relax, and chat with a new volunteer. That was it. Low pressure, easy conversation.

But then… the seating gods had other plans. Before I knew it, the Mayor pulled up a chair, and right after him, the CEO. Suddenly, my “relaxing luncheon” had turned into “Surprise! You’re at the Important People Table.”

The Mayor and I actually had plenty to talk about—we grew up in the same area and swapped stories easily. But the second the CEO sat down, it was like someone reached into my head, unscrewed my brain, and walked off with it. I forgot how conversations worked. Words? Banter? Small talk? Gone. Completely gone.

To his credit, the CEO was wonderful—warm, engaging, asking questions. My contribution? Short answers and nervous nods. That’s it. I’m fairly certain he left wondering how I function on a daily basis.

I promise, I do know what I’m doing. Just… not that day. That day, I was running on “CEO proximity mode,” and apparently, it defaults to system error.

What an unbelievably wonderful day.
Because of HIPAA, I can’t share most of the details, but I can say this: when you are living your purpose, doors open. Today I’ve been on an emotional high. All day long, I was surrounded by people who radiate joy. The atmosphere where I work is unmatched, and I know it starts at the top—from the C-Suite to the volunteers. This is the kind of place people dream of working in. My cup truly runneth over!

A Year Ago
Last year (link), I was writing about the food I ate during my 64-day hospital stay. Grilled cheese was on the menu, which makes sense because it’s one of my go-to comfort meals. I order it often—so often that the kitchen staff knows exactly what bread and cheese I prefer. The only time I stray is when something irresistible pops up on the menu.

Well, today was one of those days: French Dip with provolone. NUMMY! They were out of Pepsi, which I’m still working on forgiving, since Pepsi is one of the main reasons I love eating there. Not many places have it, but the ones that do deserve sainthood. Still, the French Dip made up for it, and the real joy was getting to share the meal with a very special person—someone who blessed me during my 64 days. He was the one who told me he prayed I would be healthy enough to leave. I was so touched then, and today we spoke again about God’s gifts and leadership. It was such a blessing.

Looking Back, Looking Ahead
I still can’t quite believe I’m two years past the beginning of my 64-day stay. I remember how hard those first days were after I woke up. Reaching the two-year mark is a huge milestone for anyone who has faced sepsis—especially septic shock. The statistics are sobering: during the first two years after sepsis, the likelihood of developing it again is high, and survivors must be hyper-vigilant. A simple cut requires careful cleaning. A mild UTI can spiral dangerously fast.

For the last two years, I’ve lived with that reality—washing my hands until they’re chapped, taking extra precautions at restaurants, and holding my breath at the thought of infection. It has been overwhelming at times. But now, as I near the two-year mark, I can finally exhale just a little easier. That alone is something to celebrate.

A Special Day Approaches
Another milestone is coming soon: the two-year anniversary of graduating from the ICU to a regular room. That date also happens to be my birthday. I can’t think of a better way to spend it than serving my patients, doing what brings me the most joy. I’ll be wearing red—not only to honor Sepsis Awareness, but also as a proud survivor.

There is so much to celebrate.

September 2, 2025 - The Tiny Butt Tether Incident

Spider Wars

I am not a fan of spiders. We have a treaty—stay on your side of the fence, and I’ll stay on mine. Unfortunately, they’ve broken the terms repeatedly. Still, I’ve been trying to fight this war with dignity, kindly capturing their soldiers and sending them back across enemy lines.

Since moving to the country, however, the soldiers have gotten bolder and more daring. It’s not quite as bad as Okinawa, though, where 12 years ago one brave (and very large) spider decided to itsy-bitsy its way right onto our bed just before sleep. That was a night I will never forget…nor will the spider.

Fast forward to today. A beautiful orb weaver had set up camp near our back door. Yesterday I noticed her, curled up and not looking great. Since she was outside—clearly abiding by the treaty—I let her be but kept my eyes peeled for potential rule-breaking.

This morning, while tending to the chickens, I noticed she had shifted a few inches but still looked rough. My inner diplomat decided it was time for a relocation mission. I grabbed my official spider/insect catch-and-release container—an empty Red Vines tub—and carefully placed it next to her.

She dropped in immediately. Mission accomplished, right? Wrong. Orb weavers, it turns out, don’t like to leave their posts. She was still tethered to her web, and as I moved the tub she nearly slingshotted right back out. Yes, I screeched. LOUDLY. I am not a fan.

Through a series of frantic “white-wash-the-board-up, white-wash-the-board-down” movements, I finally convinced her to let go of her tiny spider-butt lifeline and drop fully into the tub. When I looked inside, I had to admit—she was stunning. Black and white stripes, elegant and striking.

I carried her to the grass near our well, a prime bug location, and released her. Hopefully she’s thriving out there, rebuilding her empire. As for me, the treaty stands—though I’m keeping the Red Vines tub close by.


A year ago today (https://mwilliamsart.com/64days/2024/10/1/september-2-2024), I wrote about my struggle with memory loss from the previous year. Two years later, I still don’t remember anything from that time, and I continue to deal with ongoing memory issues. Words slip away from me regularly—as if they just evaporate from my vocabulary.

Yes, I know aging comes with the occasional lapse, but the difference since everything happened two years ago has been significant. The change was noticeable.

Thankfully, I’ve found something that helps. I take a supplement called Alpha Brain by Onnit. Since starting it, my memory issues have eased and the brain fog has lifted. I would recommend it to anyone who struggles with memory challenges, and especially to those recovering from the aftereffects of septic shock.

I think I’m more self-conscious about my lapses than other people notice, but this small supplement makes a big difference. It helps me cut through the fog—and that boost of clarity makes me feel more confident.

September 1, 2025 - Club Chicken, 2 Years Later

Funny Things That Happened

A few months ago, we let our chickens out into our fenced yard—and a fox found its way in. Ever since then, our feathered friends don’t get yard time without supervision and loud music. The theory is that noise will scare off anything that doesn’t belong, and so far, it’s worked.

Today, we let the chickens, ducks, and geese roam free while blasting my “medical jam” playlist pretty loudly. A few hours later, my husband came in laughing. He told me we had an Amazon delivery, and when I checked the security footage, I couldn’t stop laughing.

The poor delivery driver walked down the path, dropped off the package, and then stood there smiling broadly, scanning the area for the source of the sound. To him, it must have looked like Club Chicken.

Now I can’t get the image out of my head—chickens glammed up, strutting in sequins, ready to hit the dance floor. AI, please, to the rescue!


Two years ago today, I underwent a colon re-sectioning. I am told that I woke up from the surgery just fine and that it was a text book procedure. We were able to do it laparoscopically. I remember everything leading up to when I was wheeled off through secret squirrel doors that lead to the surgical suits. I remember being terrified that something was going to go wrong, not to mention that a friend of mine told me that I was going to survive but the recovery was going to be very hard. She was right.

So much has happened since then. I am still an artist, but now I’ve combined my love of healing with my love of art. I have the privilege of bringing art enrichment to patients and staff at the hospital, and I can’t believe there was ever a time I wasn’t doing this work. I’ve truly found my calling.

In addition, I am pursuing a master’s degree in Arts in Medicine at the University of Florida. It has been an incredible experience, and I’ve felt deeply supported by the faculty in everything I’m doing. Everything I learn in class goes with me into the hospital, and whenever I encounter challenges or questions, the faculty is there to help me find thoughtful solutions.

Looking back, I know that without my hospital stay—and everything that happened before and after it—I would not be here today, in this place. There have been many challenges, both medical and personal. I still remind myself daily to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Some days are harder than others, but the process is the same.

Over the next 64+ days, I plan to share more of my story: the struggles, the challenges, the wins, and the lessons. My hope is that, in doing so, I might offer something that helps someone else keep moving forward, one step at a time, toward their own new path.

To read 1 year ago: https://mwilliamsart.com/64days/2024/10/1/september-1-2024

June 25, 2023 - Back story

Background
Two years ago on September 1, 2023, I underwent surgery to remove 8 cm of infected colon that had repeatedly landed me in the emergency department. The most recent episode was on June 25, 2023, when I ended up hospitalized for five days due to a micro-perforation that required IV antibiotics.

That night, I woke up to a sharp pain in my abdomen. This wasn’t unusual—I suffered from diverticulosis that often turned into diverticulitis, and I had lived with IBS-C since I was 12. So, at first, I reasoned it away and tried to get back to sleep. But when I woke up a few hours later, the pain was still there. I ignored it at first because I had animals to care for, but after another two and a half hours, I knew I was in real trouble.

I called my mom to come get me and take me to the ER. She lives about an hour away, so I sat as still as I could to minimize the pain while waiting. When she arrived, we began the hour-long ride to the hospital—our rural Colorado reality. I felt every bump, crack, and jostle in the road. By the time we arrived, I was doubled over, crying, and begging for the pain to stop. My mom held my hand as the staff ran the usual tests: blood work, CT scan, vitals.

My husband arrived about an hour later, and together we waited for results. The doctor had ordered pain meds, so by the time the CT results came in, I was feeling much better—or so I thought. I figured it was just another flare-up, and that I’d be prescribed yet another round of antibiotics. But instead, a surgeon came into the room. He explained that this wasn’t simply another flare-up. I was naïve to the seriousness of the situation, but I remember him sitting at the end of my bed, saying the word surgery. I smiled, said I would follow up, and he left.

It didn’t hit me until the nurse returned and told me I was being admitted. Instantly, I broke into tears. The nurse tried to comfort me, saying, “You don’t have to stay if you don’t want to.” I gathered myself, put on my metaphorical “big girl panties,” and asked why I had to stay. He explained that IV antibiotics were necessary. That’s when it sank in: this was bigger than anything I had dealt with before. I agreed, and thus began my five-day, four-night stay at “Hotel Parker Hospital.”

I was lucky to have a wonderful night nurse who made me feel safe. She caught another issue that, if left untreated, could have caused serious complications. Over the next few days, they monitored me closely, and thankfully, the antibiotics worked. Eventually, I was released.

A few weeks later, I had my appointment with the surgeon, Dr. W. He explained the gravity of the situation: this was my third flare-up in less than two years, and it would likely continue. He recommended laparoscopic surgery to remove the infected section. He went over every possible risk thoroughly, but I never once doubted my trust in him. When he asked when I wanted the surgery, I replied, “The sooner the better. I don’t want to miss my nephew’s 16th birthday—I’m making him a cake, and I can’t wait to see his face.”

Dr. W. said he’d have his assistant coordinate scheduling. We booked the surgery for September 1, 2023. I left his office in shock but also with a sense of relief. I was tired of flare-ups and ready to get my life back.

As the date approached, my anxiety grew. I was told to expect a 3–10 day hospital stay, depending on how the surgery went. In this day and age, that felt like a long time. This was no minor procedure. The night before, I completed my prep and tried to sleep, but my stomach was in knots. Tomorrow was supposed to mark the first day of a new beginning—one where I wouldn’t have to rush back to the ER.

Tomorrow was Day 1.