Day 58, AYAT- I received another transfusion that day. I also had more fevers, a lot of chills, and pain, and my eyes burned so badly. I was emotional and tearful. I do remember this day and I remember crying to the nurse asking her why my eyes burned so badly. She was compassionate and she held my hand as I cried. I remember shivering so hard that all I wanted to do was take the hottest shower possible or be buried in burning towels. My normal body temperature is lower than the average so having a temperature of 101 was excruciating. It was a hard day.

Today: It was amazing. I got to see a friend I hadn’t seen in three years and experience a hug that surpassed my own if you’ve ever received a hug from me, you will know that I am a hugger and long hugger. As a society, we are afraid to touch and reach out to support each other. A lot of that has to do with Covid and some of it has to do with the way we are as a society. My favorite time of the year is coming up and someone asked me “Why is this my favorite time of the year?” I said something stupid about food which is partly true but only because it is the first meal that I know How to make from start to Finish all of the dishes. A huge accomplishment, if you know anything about my past. But there’s a deeper meaning behind my favorite time of year. It is the only time that we try to be kind to each other. It doesn’t matter what we believe, we try to be kind. Hug each other and be kind.